i love writing, but...
Nov. 5th, 2022 01:35 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ruby_red_grapefruitI stated that I am more into a fic reader than writer. I also said that I most likely will never write any brain dumps about my otp into a proper fanfiction.
Well, it's not that I don't like writing nor I can't write. Instead, I LOVE writing, especially fiction. I love creative writing. I have been writing since I was an elementary kid. I even entered some writing competitions and I have won some. I have published my writings on a blog since I was a kid.
But.... My love for writing has changed since I am in university. I pursue a major in politics and I have to write a bunch of paper for assignment and exam. I now see writing not as a hobby anymore, not as a solace or relaxing activity. I see writing as a burden because of uni.
It's sad actually. I don't enjoy writing as much as I enjoy it before. Everytime I opened my laptop and trying to write some stories, I feel so heavy. I will keep writing but I end up not finish it. It's hard not to get the feel for finding solace and relaxing in writing while I sit in front of my laptop after hours and hours writing for my paper. I am tired of writing.
I stil try to find that "spark joy" of writing fiction, though. I prefer to write any writing aside of my college paper in my phone now. Because I feel more relaxed. I can write while leaning back or lying around. Writing on my phone gives me some different feelings because I use phone for entertainment purpose.
Well, let's see if I end up deciding to write some fic, hehe. I will try, though. I have opened my ao3 again. Wish me luck then!
Well, it's not that I don't like writing nor I can't write. Instead, I LOVE writing, especially fiction. I love creative writing. I have been writing since I was an elementary kid. I even entered some writing competitions and I have won some. I have published my writings on a blog since I was a kid.
But.... My love for writing has changed since I am in university. I pursue a major in politics and I have to write a bunch of paper for assignment and exam. I now see writing not as a hobby anymore, not as a solace or relaxing activity. I see writing as a burden because of uni.
It's sad actually. I don't enjoy writing as much as I enjoy it before. Everytime I opened my laptop and trying to write some stories, I feel so heavy. I will keep writing but I end up not finish it. It's hard not to get the feel for finding solace and relaxing in writing while I sit in front of my laptop after hours and hours writing for my paper. I am tired of writing.
I stil try to find that "spark joy" of writing fiction, though. I prefer to write any writing aside of my college paper in my phone now. Because I feel more relaxed. I can write while leaning back or lying around. Writing on my phone gives me some different feelings because I use phone for entertainment purpose.
Well, let's see if I end up deciding to write some fic, hehe. I will try, though. I have opened my ao3 again. Wish me luck then!
